Monster Hunter...........™

Last Carnival By Norihiro Tsuru

2009-06-02T00:22:00.003+08:00

Last sunday I attend a concert at vjc,
there was this song that was played that
captivated me. Last Carnival By Norihiro Tsuru.

A sad song featuring a group of clowns,
getting outcast by people just because
that people could not accept them.
As the clowns was being chase away,
they perform for the people once more,
the last perfomance, the last carnival.
As they were performing,
they knew that after that carnival,
all of them will be going different way,
however they try to be happy,
and enjoy their last carnival together.
And after that, all was left is fading memories....

Alright beside that, let's go back to my life.
Life is S-U-C-K-Y.(FULLSTOP)
Why?
It's Because,
a) I hate my class.
b) I hate the HoD of my school.
c) I hate my form teacher.
d) I Suck At Volleyball.
e) I Do Not Have Any Friend
In My CCA. , They Don't
Understand Me Anyway.
f) My Old Cliques Are All
In Poly.
g) I Getting Back My Childhood
Nightmares Again
h) I Am Still Living On Fake
Happiness.
i) I Think I Fail My General Paper.
j) I Lost Track Of My Dreams.
k) I Can't Help My Friends.
l) I Can't Seem To Do Anything Right.
Basically, I Suck, So Life Suck Simple As That.
So You People Out There. STUDY HARD.
NURTURE YOUR TALENT.
SO YOU WILL NOT BE SUCKY
THUS YOUR LIFE WILL NOT SUCKY TOO.
And Lastly A Sad Fact I Want Admit.
I Don't Need Sympathizers To Be My Friend.
If You Are My Friend Because You Pity Me.
Fours Words For You.
No Thanks, Get Lost.
For People Who Think You Are Great,
Wonderful, Perfect, A Nature-born Leader.
Well Guess What, You In For Some Real
Shit, Yea, All The Gangs Stuff, Woooo,
Scary, Come On Man, Even If Your
Brother Is The President Of The US,
You Overstep The Line,
(I can only wish good luck to you,
for I know pretty well, I have
a sinister side, once you awake it.
Death May Not Be Surprising.)
So Once Again, Good Luck To
Those Who Provoke Me.

I Seriously Don't Care.

2009-04-23T23:01:00.002+08:00

When Things Start To Hit The Bottom,
They Usually Bounce Up Again.
But What If, There Is No Bottom?
So It Just Keep Falling And Falling.

Born Alone, Lived Alone,
Suffered Alone, Die Alone~

This phase which i read it somewhere
has always cling on to me.
It has a significant logic that somehow
hurt me and make me felt better.

Only When The Grave Are Dug,
And The Coffin Is Buried,
Then Only Mistakes Are Realized~

How many times did I broke our promises?
How many times did I make her cry?
How many times did I Disappointed her?
Where is she now?
Why didn't I treasured her concern?

Love, A Bliss Or Abyss? ~

Let Me Suffer Alone God. Not Them...

2009-03-30T23:38:00.002+08:00

In My Whole Life.
Fate Took Every Reasons To Live Away From Me.
Fate Took The One I Love So Much.
The One Who Did So Much For Me Yet Suffered.
Why?
Fate Thrown Me To Peirce Secondary School.
A Place Full Of Betrayals And Fake Smile.
Is It Because Of Retribution That I Disbanded
A Gang For A Girl?
Or Is It Because Fate Find It Funny?
Peirce Secondary Has Many People In Need Of Help.
I Offered To Help.
Patch People Who Fought Up.
Listen To Their Sorrows.
Help Them Do Stuff.
But In The End, What Did I Get In Return?
Attitudes.
Betrayals.
Ignorance.
Arrogance.
Sabotages.
Backstabbing.
Badmouthed.
Framed.
What Did I Do?
Nothing. Just Sit In Canteen And Listen.
Listen To People Sharing Information.
So That It's Possible To Use This To Help Others.
But No One Cares Really.
Like As If They Care When Their Ass Is Not On Fire.
They Think That I Am Okay When I Smile.
I Don't Even Know Whether I Am Really Smiling.
They Complained And Compared Their Injuries To Mine.
Do I Need To Dig Out My Heart To Tell You I Am Sick?
Cardio-Deterioration.
Like Fuck Why I Had It?
They Isolate Me Because I Am A Half Korean.
Well I Guess Koreans Will Isolate Me For Being Half SG.
They Broke Down And Scream Fuck You At Me.
Whenever They Got Ditch,Dumped,Ignored.
Like As If I Was The One Doing It.
At Least The One You Like Or Love Is Alive.
Where's Mine?
Somewhere Up There? Or Down there?
Or There Is No Such Thing As Afterlife.
They Live On Their Life Without Feeling Guilty.
I Felt Guilty For Those People Who Died,
Who Played With The Tarot Cards,
Which My Cursed Hand Draw The Death Card.
Why Am I Still Alive?
Fine I Attempt Suicide Before.
Trying To Finnish The Whole Tab Of Medication.
Which Was Used To Roughly Stabilize My Heart.
Running Non Stop In The Rain Screaming.
Crying Every Night, Pretending Everyday.
Just To Make Sure No One Got Worried.
So In The End.
Fate Find It Amusing.
And I Bet Fate Has More To Torture Me.
Before Ending My Life.
But,
I Will Never Give Up.
For The Girl I Love Before,
Who Taught Me How To Live,
Who Would Comfort Me When I Am Down.
Who Would Cry For Me When I Did Wrong.
My Life Is Worth Living For Her.
No,
I Have No Life At All.
This Is Her Life, Not Mine.
I Have No Authority Over This.
Til The Day I Finally Lie In The Coffin.
I Will Just Brace On.
Throw Me Any Fuck Nonsense You Have.
I Will Never Surrender To You Fate.
So Let's Move On,
Whether I Like It Or Not.
My Life Is For Helping Others,
Even If It Take My Life.
For She Did The Same Thing For Me.

XinLing,
I Hated And Loved You,
For What You Done.
But I Will Never Forget,
The Last Few Words,
You Told Me.
The Few Promises We Made.
And Lastly, The Tears You Shed,
For A Loser Like Me.

Hold On, As Soon As I Am Done,
I Join You Where Ever You Are.
Signed
Lein Septerra~

5 Push Up Per Minute Late

2009-03-07T18:41:00.002+08:00

5 Push up per minute late, start counting at 8.30am sharp
Reached school at 9.25am, so I was 55mins late,
5 X 55 = 275 PUSH UPS!!!!
Yep, before I can join the team in the hall for training,
I was being punished by Miss Hong (VBall Teacher)
for arriving school late, ChunFai was also late, same time
reach school, but he got reasons, he need to sent someone
off at the airport in the morning and he rushed back school.
Poor ChunFai, 275push ups, plus training and homework,
I bet he will be sleeping at his Alumni Gala dinner tonight.
Well that is that, I seriously need to train hard for A
Division next year, and of course study hard to get in SC.
Went to WestMall eat Sakae Sushi with ChunFai, then took
Mrt back to Amk(WHY IS IT RAINING?!!).
Took bus home and immediately stone at computer.
Haiz feeling so hungry and down now, don't know what
shall i do tomorrow.

Mortals Try So Hard To Stay Alive
But Alas, Death Will Still Greet Them.

Tarot Card No 14 ~ Death 死亡上帝

M I! ACE! V For VolleyBall~

2009-03-06T23:46:00.004+08:00

Yep Yep Another tiring week of school,
and already broke one of my glasses ,
V stands For VICTORY!
So after all persistence and determination
is what I needed to convince Mr Ting.
So he agreed to help me change class,
but under the condition that 09s4 does
not get filled up to 30+ by advance students.
DUN FAIL UR COMMON TEST PLS!
Anyway It's was MI Sport Fiesta &
Peirce Cross Country today, so let me
split this into two.

__________________________________
Millennia Institute's Sports Fiesta 2009
Firstly, I apparently forgot about the sports
fiesta event is today, so i brought all my notes
and forgot to bring P.E attire.(Not going volley,
needed to rush back to Peirce for CrossCountry)
So betrayed my onyx house, I ran over to
Sapphire house and sit beside my cousin.
QiaoYing was there also, she is wearing this
cheer leading outfit that look kinda funny,
so i was listening to my psp songs til she kick me,
(It hit my rib btw......) and asked me why I so emo.
( Okay I was indeed emo-ing but I can't just say
out loud that I was emo-ing) So i just smile and
say my cousin here , so equals no emo haha.
(Score Given By 6 Members Beside Me )
Cheer Leading Marks ( 0~6 per Judge)
Garnet 31
Sapphire 30
Onyx 28
Zircon 25
Well it's seem there was a unpopular
member in zircon that somehow pissed
the judges off.(Well who cares?)
Anyway GOOD JOB QY WOO~
Back to topic, there only 2 events
that caught my eye only, Bossa ball
and track races, particularly sleeping
throughout the whole fiesta.
Today was also PeiShan's birthday,
HBD PeiShan! Prepare a surprise for
her, hope she like the present we all
folk out for her.
Well It's kinda late now, so i continue
shall continue tomorrow.

__________________________________
Peirce Secondary School Annual Cross Country
Okay fine I know I was late, but hey at least I
ran as well.Well I saw a lot of old friends
came but did not run, haha my It Juniors is
still the best people to see after graduation,
have a little chat with Ms Hong (SecSch Teacher)
and Desmond, apparently Ms Hong Is amused
by my admission to MI and the course I took.
Also met Huiyue, Shuting, Deirdre,
SineYi, Esther, Hong Jie & Jonathan.
(You Owe Me My Score Jonathan Grrrrr)
Went Lan With Desmond and his juniors
then met up with ChunFai and Prince J
at ToaPayoh, eat dinner, chat about VBall
and went home. Took same bus with
Prince J and he attempted to lie to me that
Ayumi Hamasaki was his girlfriend. . . .
Well Tired Day eh? See 7/3/09 post

Could You .......................
Accept And Mend My Broken Heart?

School Of Opportunities?

2009-02-24T20:24:00.002+08:00

So the class banding is out,
and yea i got into my S102 combination.
And instead of getting to 09S4,
the class with all my study partners,
I got into 09S7. A Class full of too
friendly people. They are sociable,
but not idea classmates if you really
want to study super hard.
So I tried to appeal to the teacher
-in-charge of class banding, Mr Ting.
I wrote one A4 page full proposal.
(thanks MsHong For This precious gift)
Mr Ting just give a brief explanation,
and just dismissed my appeal.
So defeated, I approached my form
teacher, Mr Ang , he at least listen
to my whole explanation, and suggest
to me that he will try address it to
the class. So chances of changing class?
0.002%. Afterward I went to consult
our PreU1 Head, Mr Jaron Pow,
and he apologize and explained
why we cannot change class.
It was the fear of other people
changing class as well, and give me
this excuses that make freaking
agitated and frustrated.
"The school is giving you
opportunities to get use to
environments that you are not
use to it. So next time when you
are working, you will get use to it."
Like HELLO? I AM A STUDENT!
I WANT TO STUDY? NOT WORK?
Even if I work, i doubt i need to sit
down and listen to a lecture everyday
with colleagues disturbing me?
My only hope lies with my form teacher,
and perhaps our principal, Mr Tan.

Fate is Cruel, Unfair & Unpredictable. . .

Imperio 2009

2009-02-07T17:41:00.003+08:00

Tiring Week I Should Say,
Welcome To 2009! It's Quite Awhile
Since I Last Posted, Pretty Busy
Actually, Trying To Play Last
Minutes Games Before School Reopen.
Millennia Institute, Yep That's Where
I Was Posted To By Moe Jae Program.
Quite A Good School, We Have Lots
Of L1R5 < 15 Students In Our School,
Which Means Our School Is Gaining
Popularity. Our School Is Considered
As Moe Government School, Just That
We Are A Special 3 Years Jc Courses.
For Those People Who Keep Telling Me
Millennia Sucks Or Something Like That,
Millennia Institute Has A Quite A High
Percentage Of Students Graduating To
Local University, Around 20+% Pass
Their A Levels And Proceed To
Local University. ^^

Millennia Institute Imperio 2009
This Is Our Theme For Our
Orientation For The PreU 1.
Imperio Stands For Empire
In Italian, And There Are 4
Groups In This Orientation.
Trojan,Roman, Athenian &
Macedonian. I Am In
Macedonian Group 3.
Quite A Nice Group,
Just A Little Too Quiet.
Make Quite Alot Of New
Friends, Jonathan, Ryan
Chun Fai, Joel And Sanjiv.
And There Is This OGL
Called QiaoYing, Funny
Senior I Should Say,
Jonathan Declare Her As
His Arch Enemy From
Day 1 (As In Joking One),
Then We Keep Disturbing
Her, The Most Funny Part
Is When She Was Promoting
Her CCA(Wushu)To The Whole School,
She Forgot Her Lines And I Finnish
It For Her And She Start Giggling.
(I Was Sitting Right In Front Of Her)

Well, Good Start In A Good School,
Let's Hope It Stay That Way Til
I Graduate From MI~

Love Is All About Making The
Girl You Like Happy.
That's What I Called True Love~

The Angel Of My Life

2008-12-06T00:26:00.003+08:00

Finally I Decided To Post
Something, My Blog look So
Abandoned And Desolated.
Alright Let's Start With
The Class Chalet~

3/12/08 Wed~
Prepared my stuff yesterday
and have to wake up early
to meet Yazid and Aden
for our run at YCK mrt.
I was late by 20mins(as usual)
So I ran to the mrt station,
to find Yazid standing there
alone, so that means...
Aden is late! So called
Aden on the phone and
he sounded very pissed.
So when he reach, he
explain about his payday,
paid 28 bucks to reach a
destination which is wrong,
So together we put our luggage
at my house and we went for
a run at the flats around my house.
After that have lunch and rush
to downtown east, met akmal and
max on the way and went arcade.
Chalet was still okay, except
a group of boys drank half bottle
of my red wine without my
permission, all like wine-morons,
drink wine as if drinking water,
all gulp the wine then act as if
they know how to drink wine.
Plus they didn't say sorry nor
thank you to me as if the wine
was part of the bbq they paid for.
And so happen this group of
boys went lan, how fortunate.
So the so-called class chalet,
only have 3 girls and 6 boys,
the rest went home or lan.
Slept about only 2 hours
then wake up play Taidi
with Wilfred, then went
Macdonald with Rachel, Belinda
and Wilfred.

4/12/08 Thursday
Still freaking pissed off by
the wine theft, still playing
taidi with En xian, Farid & Wilfred,
then went to buy another two
bottle of red wine, enjoy one in the
morning, then Akmal came back
alone from the lan, I was like,
"All they all dead from drinking
my wine and getting into a fight
with each other?" Then he say
they all coming back later.
So I went escape theme park,
ride the kart twice(almost die),
viking ship which i enjoy,
and other lame ride.
Then I bade goodbye to them
and I left the chalet with Wilfred,
we two can't be bothered to
stay for another night, and to
imagine the wine morons
will be sleeping there, what
disaster could possibly not
occur?Plus I missing my
Darling~ So I sms my darling
telling her I coming back
home early, so left the chalet
around 4+ before the morons
came back. Had My wedding
with my darling, Celia, in
Audition, Thank you all
who have attend the wedding
party and supported me.
Especially My Hyung~
-ANI-Tiger! And of course
my darling Celia for accepting
my proposal and helping me
pass the wed license lolz.

And this is for the wine morons,
No need to say sorry or thank
you liao, because your action
just shown me what jerks
you all are. So what if u all
are in your so-called tribes?
Treat me outcast, then outcast
lolz, at least I not some hypocrites
that relies on pretending to make
friends. I can tell you all more
than half of you all are fakers,
trying to sabotage and backstab
each other when you have the
chance. Well I wish you all
a early retribution. Aye~

I Love You Dear~

Lone Wolf, Crying High In The Mountain

2008-06-14T23:57:00.002+08:00

I always wished for
a sibling to accompany
me, to play with, talk
to, share joys and sorrows,
but I am still the only child.
So my home is like a
place just to let me
sleep.

With no one to play
with, my playstation
became my siblings,
so i played games
to entertain myself.
Then online games
were introduce to me,
and i manage to make
alot of friends and
some sisters and
brothers which are
all virtual,fake.
And not those you
could trust on.
My significant other
was taken away
by the fiend hands
of Death.

So no one that I
could really trust,
everyone always say
the same thing,
"Don't worry, if you
got problem, I will
help you.".
What's the point when
you are the one causing
the problem and
you are enjoying it?

Think And Learn.
Go the Right Path
For I Can't.

Goodbye My Friend

2008-06-14T23:54:00.002+08:00

I would like to make
this post to one of
my friend, Jordan,
who pass away in
the hospital last night,
due to long term
high fever and cough.
The doctor could not
do anything and he
suffer til he met his end.

Jordan Ng, I Wish
You All The Best.
I Will Pray For You.

†DreamsOfSorrows† Dreams That Are True And Sad

2008-06-11T21:01:00.002+08:00

Mirror Of Reality, Dreams
Dream 1
Have You ever wonder that
our time on earth is limited,
our time with our parents
are even less and is
countable. Even if You think
that you hate your parents.
Think hard, they are the only
one that you should and could
trust. Your life, education,
everything You process now,
all actually belongs to your
parents. Think hard, appreciate
and thanks your parent.
If not when you lose them,
you never have a chance again.

Dream 2
Have You ever wonder about
Death? Attended a funeral?
Enjoy life while you can,
if not, you all will be like
Xelina, a perfectionist but
alas Fate took her away.
Appreciate everything,
learn how to forgive people,
don't waste time trying to
get revenge. Try to makeup
with your friends if you all
breakup. Be the one that
say sorry, do forgive me.
And if someone tell you that,
accept his/her apology.
Life Is Short, Make
A Difference In This World.

Dream 3
The Future, what would You
be? A famous scientist who
can make the world better?
Or a roadsweeper who sweep
for his whole life and die
forgotten?Or a cruel and
hardless terrorist who bend
on destruction? What would
be your future? Could You
archieve your dreams?
Don't take risk, just study.

Confucius once said
"When You throw a
stone in to a still pond,
the ripples you created
are small but the ripples
will crash on to the shore.
Same goes to our action,
no matter how small or
insignificant your action
were, it will affect those
around you.

The Ultimate Answer
to life. Death

No Way Of Smiling

2008-05-06T21:31:00.003+08:00

It's just sad,
for eventually, everything
have to come to an end.
When you die, you either
get cremated or buried,
I wonder is there another
world out there, that we go
to after death, and does
death feel like?
5days ago,
my great grandmother
has passed away peacefully
in Singapore General Hospital,
and i have to attend the funeral
ceremony for 4 days,
I did not witness the passing
but I when over to see my
great granny while she is
resting in the coffin.
Her face was smiling,
and there was a pearl
put into to her mouth,
symbolising she had a
good life.
Today was the last day
of the funeral cermony,
which means the day when
she get cremated.
We see her one last time
before the coffin left,
and witness the coffin entering
the furnace.
My grandma, aunty and my
mum was crying, singing
the chinese folk song,
on earth only the mother
is the best.
Now, my mum and dad
quarrel again, and my
mum is saying her usual
threats, but this time
more serious,
she just called me and
said she wouldn't be coming
back, and she said if I
don't want to see her
in the coffin like
my great granny,
i will have to pass
all my subjects.

I can't take this anymore,
I want freedom,
I want everyone to be happy,
I want Friends that i can
really count on.
I want her to be with me.
After all,
Maybe I want to die.................

Someone said:
"If you want her to be happy
up there, then you must carry
on your life and be happy.
You said she lived in your
heart, but if your heart is sad,
wouldn't she be sad as well?
i believe that she want you
to find another girl, and
be happy."

The problem is,
i can't find that girl,
even though there is
someone i truly like,
and care, but i just
don't dare to tell her.
So forever stuck
in this oblivious.

Pity Thy Soul~
For Love Have No Mercy~
Thou Shall Not Live Forever~
For Death Lurks Every Corner~

Look Like I Failed....

2008-04-20T11:37:00.002+08:00

It seems that I failed
in seeing one true colors,
all those which I see as
good and trustworthy
prove me otherwise,
same goes for those
that i deem that will
cause me trouble.
If you notice I deleted
you from msn, that means
I wish to get away from you.
And Thank YOU so much
Desmond Kong,
I now can officially declare
that I can stop troubling
myself in your freaking
love and mood swing problems,
because you are one of the
lucky one to be strike
of my list as friends,
and now you are featured
in my post, honoured aren't
you?

Someone,
Pls Stop Holding me,
Let me Go pls...........

Are We Born To Work&Die?

2008-04-08T20:50:00.004+08:00

Today was a very strange day,
firstly, Miss hong was ABSENT,
which is so rarely, and Mr cheng,
he cried for his students, admirable
teacher indeed, he was telling us
how worried was he that if we
should fail e maths in 'O' Level,
there is no school we could go,
and he fail in his job as a teacher.
But when he was trying to
encourage and ask us to start
hardworking and believe in him,
I was staring out at the window,
not because i was disrespecting him.
I was staring at the sky, thinking,
of her, the memories, the deleted post,
the promises and the misfortune.
Only A Few Know Who Is She,
Fewer Know About The Posts,
Even Less People Know About
The Memories.
So I Just Type This Out Once
More.
Xelina Lim Xin Ling,
I Love You Forever,
Even Though Fate
Seperated Us.....
You Will Forever Live
In My Heart,My Memories.

MrTan: "Actually, we are just
parts of the economy,
Singapore created us, provide
us with education so that
we could fill in the economy.
Very few could actually break
that cycle, and mostly of them
don't go to university, because
university will tune the students
nicely so they can fit into the job,
but not contribute to the economy.
But I not saying don't go university,
go, but try oversea uni, because
there is more competitive,
and you get along with other
students from different places."
(Short Pause)
"And those students that say
they will stay and study in
Singapore is very short sighted,
and some other say they will
work hard to reach the top and
change the rules, but when reach
there, forget everything, aiyo
government pay me a nice salary,
why should I bother rocking the boat?
So that's why nothing change.
We stay as normal people.
So okay Benjamin, talk
to you some other time."

Be Happy, Don't Frown Pls

2008-04-01T19:26:00.003+08:00

Pls, all i am asking you
is to be just happy everyone,
it's not as if i am asking
for the impossible.

It's like everytime I
go around you all,
you all start frowning,
if it's me you dun like,
pls feel free to call me
go away, at least i dun
get to see you being sad.
If not, pls tell me why,
maybe i could help you,
i always wanted to help,
but the fear of making it
worse always struck me.
So Pls Give Me One Chance,
To Prove Myself.

"Pls Don't Cry,
For Your Tears Make My Sorrow"
Smile, You Look More Pretty That
Way

Blinded By Sorrow, Confuse By Thoughts

2008-03-29T20:47:00.002+08:00

Man, I seriously dun know why,
it's like everything i do, someone
suffer.No matter how good my
intention were.
Someone asked me to teach her maths,
i thought she would understand when
i show her the equation, but i was wrong,
and for that, i upset her.
I was chosen to be the Vgm of my
guild subguild.
But because of that, my frens,
one soon to be Gm and another guy
quarrel.
And Thanks Ivy for trying to help,
but you see, i can't seem to do
anything right, no matter how hard
i tried.
I Dun want anyone to suffer,
please, all those i know,
and I treated as friends,
please dun be sad,
dun fight because of me,
you know everytime,
i see u all frown,
cried, I also feel sad.

So pls, i will do it,
whatever it takes to help u all,
even it cost my life.
Just Let Me Go......................

"Do you know your mere existence
make me sad?"---(Someone I cared)
"Very well, May our path never cross
again, that should make you happy"
That's my reply...........

Trapped In Darkness, Forgotten By Light

2008-03-26T21:43:00.002+08:00

Long time never blog.
Really sorry if there were actually
people who are reading my blog.
I really doubt so.....................

Okay today i want to comment
something that has been bothering me.

(Read Passage Please)
Quote From Code 3214
Subject: Turning Points.
Paragraph 1 Line 34+

In Life, There Will
Be Always This Turning Point,
It's Like On The Journey Of Life,
You came across two path,
One Dark Tunnel and a bending path.
The cowardice and the smart
avoid the dark tunnel while
the curious and lazy people
will take the dark tunnel.
Those who enter the darkness
will enter the danger zone.
The unknown and darkness
are lurking everywhere,
some manage to get use to it,
while others fail and died.......
but every tunnel has an end.
Those who use to the darkness
will eventually have to came out again.
Many struggle to look under
the glaring sun.
While others just hide in the tunnels.
This Is What We Refer as Lost One.

After reading this, I realise that,
I am a goner, no way of return.
No matter how hard i try,
I can't seems to do anything right.
Schoolwork, game, friendship and
family. Everything seems to
suffer because of me.
EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!
I HATE THIS, I HATE YOU,
I HATE MYSELF, I HATE THIS
FREAKING WORLD.
I HATE PRETENDERS,
I HATE MY LIFE.
WHAT MISS HONG SAID
IS TRUE, I SHOULD
END MY GOD DAMM
FREAKING, USELESS,
PARASITIC, PATHERTIC
LIFE.
I HOPELESS, GET IT?
I KEEP PICTURING ONE DAY,
JUST ANY ONE DAY,
A CAR MIGHT JUST BANG ME,
AND I WILL LIMP TO SCHOOL,
AND LET ALL THOSE WHO
WANT ME DEAD TO ENJOY
MY LAST MOMENT.

Urban Extreme Possible Base 2

2008-03-09T09:41:00.000+08:00

Alright, apart from Aden,
who is also looking for other base,
I found One located at Amk also,

but it's slighty further than base 1.

Here Are Few Pictures I Took

Possible Base 2

CarPark Just Beside Base

Flats With Railing On Ground Floor

If Urban Extreme Would Like

To Make This Their 2nd

Base, Do Inform Me.

Thank You

Forlorn Hope

2008-03-03T22:33:00.000+08:00

First Of All,
I would like to thanks
Adrian for accepting
my apology.And
Akmal for being so
understanding. And
Lastly Aden for
being the one who
shine the way for
me when i was
blinded by arrogance.

But It seems that i have
ill luck fate, just as soon
as some problem perish,
other rises.
Today, when i woke up,
I can't even move myself
to unwrap myself from
my blanket, and i was
like burning hot inside.
My mum came in and
woke me up, thinking that
I didn't wake up even though
my handphone alarm
when off several times.
Then she finally notice i
was having fever.
She quicky gave me medicine,
and i just fall back to slumber.
Then i notice, i can't seem
to see anything when she gave
me the medicine,I just barely
open my mouth.
Things got a little better,
during the afternoon,but
there is this persistent
headache that is killing me.
Now I am here writing,
with a freaking fever of 38'C
but i can't seem to sleep.

I like this girl in my school
very much but, I can't seem
to talk to her or even
ask her out for a date.
We always smile and
exchange greetings,
and walk seperate path.
How I wish that we could
chat for awhile longer?

Forgive The Unforgiven
And Seek The Path
Of No Grudge, Hatred
Jealousy And Sorrrow
Only Then, One Attained Happiness

My Ethernal Love For Thy

2008-02-12T21:11:00.000+08:00

No uttered words I speaks,
No skies of golden hue,
No tales of unrequited love,
They were lost when I lost you.
No words to caress my heart,
And gone the dreams I swore they'd live,
But alone within I dwells,
No uttered words... none left to give.
No music swells within my soul,
Just silence surrounds my heart,
And the solitude engulfs my world,
When she and love depart.
And lost the beauty I once could see,
And the glory I saw each day,
Now I pens my sorrows,
No more love can I convey.
But what's mine soul to do?
To release the love I feels,
For I'll surely die and wither,
If that love I now conceals.
I will hide the hurt and heartache,
Just smile to friends and say,
I'm fine... love doesn't matters,
And deceive them all that way.
For a different face I'll show them,
To barricade my pain,
To hide my shattered spirit,
From the love I never attained.
But the pain within shall kill Me,
Not soon but through the years,
For I knows mine anguish,
When alone she sheds my tears.
And at night when dreams come calling,
With her voice, her smile... her eyes,
A single tear upon my cheek,
Hides the pain my heart belies.
For I loved her soul completely,
Was consumed by beauty's bliss,
Had shared her inner thoughts,
But never shared ethernal bliss.
And when death greeted her,
And to heaven her soul ascends,
I'll smile before her beauty,
For eternity never ends.
So will I regret the life,
Which stole away the good years,
No I'll simply recall the love,
I felt in all my tears.
And when I has joined my love,
And we meet in heaven's bliss,
Our regrets will quickly perish,
As we love for ethernal bliss.

Rejected Again I Guess

2008-02-08T18:03:00.000+08:00

After all, maybe love isn't my game.
i guess i tio rejected again.
Well actually i roughly predicted that also.
There is no way a failure like me,
could woo someone else lolz.
It's like aden stories, 1percent chance,
but in my case, i would never win.

Anyway I Would Like To Thanks
Aden Ng
for making such nice stories
for everyone to read.
Malcolm Kwok
for making nice jokes
that really cheer me up sometimes
Suzzane
for troubling her
with my problem
And Joleen( Mei!)
for helping me see things
more clearly to avoid mistakes
Thanks Alot Guys&Gals.
I owe U all one.

Reunited Soon I Guess........Dying Through The Pain Of Love

2008-02-03T10:02:00.000+08:00

Ok i Update,i got a recent complain again zzz.
Honestly speaking i think i really 'going soon'.
If you all get wat i mean by going soon,
Since After Her Death,My health seems to
deteriorate, It's like i lost my will to live,
Recently i got this sharp pain at my chest,
and last around 10~30mins.
Time must be running out for me,
and yet there is things that i left undone.
I have to pay malcolm what i owe him,
And I Don't want to leave this world
with people still hating me.
Someone Please help me say sorry
to adrain, malcolm and Aden.
Then I leave This World...............

Fate Might Seperated Us
But Alas It's Love That Reunited
Us Again

Start Anew

2008-01-17T20:12:00.000+08:00

I Deleted Most Of My Previous Post.
For Those Who Know Xelina.
Just Remember And Dun Tell Anyone.

I Will Just Remember Her Forever............

So Pls Do Not Remind me Painful Memories Again thanks

2e4 Memories

2006-12-19T18:59:00.000+08:00

2E4 Memories
People that travelled In Bus 2E4'06
Together For This Year
Not Knowning What Brings Tomorrow
Angelin
Adrain
Anas
Aden
Bernice
Belinda
Benjamin
Cheng Hong
Desmond
Eunice
Ee Rong
Jaywee
Jessica
Jolene
Jamine
Jason
JustinTan
JustinQuek
Lionel
MeiLi
Malar
Mark
Malcolm
Nina
Natasha
Pamela
Pearlyn
Qiu Shi
Ronald
Si Hui
See leng
Syaheera
Syazwan
Sen Hui
Vincent
Wei liang
Wilfred
Yiqi
Yazid